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Salams ppl,

I've had the worst migrane lately, sinus o hote pare. Dont no 4 sure. Ammu sheidin tiger balm lagaye dilo, it got better after that. But onek panadol kaite hoitese to block out the pain. U no chocolate blocks out pain too, wat do u say ami panadol substitute kore chocolate khai, hehe. That way mota hoite hoite phaitta jabo ami. Im going 2 uni late 2day, icha kore, coz kichu bhalo lage na. I need a holiday, dure kothao jete icha kore. Koi jabo boloto, any ideas? Are, taka poisha to nai, jabo kemni tai na? Anyways, pagol pagol mone hoitese amake, na? Ashole pagol pagol lagtese. Dont u feel like that sometimes. Like u've gone all pagol and every1 else around u is sane. Probably not, hmmmm....

Uni jete icha kortese na. But I have 2 go coz I've missed too many classes. Ar ekta miss korle me fail. Fail korle ammu fit hoye jabe. But alhamdulillah ammu is supportive abt pora shona. Abbu is too but like all macho men he duznt like to show it. It's funny, what happened the other day was ami ammur shathe beshi ghesha gheshi kortesilam and she got scared. She thought ami preme teme porsi or something, HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! If I really liked some1 like that I'd tell my Mum, she knows that. And I told her how this dude was after one of my frends and then she asked me if any1 was after me and i said, "ami ki shundor naki je amar piche keo bhagbe!". Apparently ammu was upset abt that. Amar aar ammur eki problem - super sensitive. U dont know what will upset us. Ektu tei koshto pai but at the same time onek offensive things gaye lage na. I told u ami pagol pagol type. Must have gotten it from ammu, lol.

I was telling Tahnia apu on the train the other day that I know abbu duznt show it but he is super emotional (like Anika). He told ammu that when amar biye hoi and I leave he wont survive (how sweeeeeettt!!). But he'll never say anything like that 2 my face. I think compared to most girls, I'm unusually close 2 my parents - both ammu and abbu. This is one of those things u cant explain with words but you know its true because a feeling in your heart tells you so (that came out overly mushy, eeeewwwww!).

Anyways, ammu abbu niye golpo shuru korsi - shud stop now. Just making the point that alhamdulillah im so lucky to have such caring parents (and they're lucky 2 have a daughter like me, jokes, hehe). Anika and I are so close too, I tell her everything! Unless its some1 elses secrets or something i know some1 wouldnt like me 2 mention i leave that out. But eto close hobar poreo its hard coz of the whole not-so-Islamic lifestyle problem. Sure, its hard when ur parents are hostile towards u practising Islam but I think its harder when ur parents are loving. Psychologically it hurts u more coz u love em more and want whats best 4 em but they fail 2 c that sometimes =(

Anyways, as u have guessed i am a pagol who needs psychological help, hehe. Na, seriously, i have Allah (SWT), and that is enough for me. Although at times it feels like i need a lot of support from other people and i break down real bad, it's always Allah (SWT) who consoles me at the end. So alhamdulillah for Islam =).

Now I shall leave and get ready 4 uni (doubt it) but should make an attempt at it. U guys enjoy ur day and keep me in ur dua's.

Wassalam