salamji

hey ppl, sorry, i didnt realize we were posting comments...........thats why i didnt write any comments.....................anyways..........from now on inshaallah i will. but if you write something.......and i write a comment.......would you post a msg to ans that..........or put comment in your own msg? i am confused...............anyways........yeah i thouggt about wat you guys said.......about separating guys and girls..........i gave that suggestion.........but the pres didnt really seem interested......she says its not like we are doing anything wrong.............even though we should.........but in this society we cant totally separate malesandfemales...............the thing is ppl in our club arent as religious i guess.........i mean there is this one really religious guy..........so when they were playing hindi and some english songs in the club..........he said that it was haram.......but then this other guys started arguing with him so he didnt say anything...........you know, before this club started.........i saw the muslim ppl around the school......and i used to think they were so religious. i mean, there arent many muslim girls in our school......the ones who are there i knew they . but the guys, even though i never talked to them, i allways used to admire them, because they looked so religious........they are really shy outside i guess. but when they are in the club, they act really crazy, childish i guess. i mean, there was this one guy, i never saw him talking to any girls, some of them, i guess i thought were controling their gaze, cause they would never look at you, its kind of like they look through you. or maybe its because they were so tall, so they didnt have to look at ppl's faces, they could just look straight w/0 looking at girls. and there was this other guy, i heard this thing about him, dont know if its true. i heard that one time he thought this girl likes him, so he went up to that girls muslim friend, and told her to tell her friend that he is muslim, and isnt allowed to like girls, so tell her not to stare at him. that muslim girl is maliha's friend. but maliha said that she exagerates a lot, and sometimes lie too. so i guess we didnt believe her completely. but the girl who he thought liked him got really mad and told all her friends, and some ppl laughed. but after that i really respected him. but after the club started, i kind of started loosing respect for those guys. i mean, that day the pres, well actually co-founder , went to the muslim guys table to talk to them about the club. she had to tell them something. but then this guy started teasing her, about made nasty remarks. he was swearing and made some sexual comments abotu her and this muslim guys (jokingly). she got really mad, but the muslim guys were laughing. i mean i understand that person is their friends, but they should've stopped him. anyways, after i heard that i really didnt want to see their faces ever again, but then the co-founder is my friend, so she convinced me to go back to the club. you know the co-founder is a senior right? and there is this sophomore guy in the club. ora duijonei khub joke kore. cheleta shob shomoi oke ragai, ar mayeta rager bhan kore. and twice the girl started chasing the guy all around the school. in our club, guys and girls are really involved. so one time i told her, that i guess its ok that we have to work together to keep the club going, but dont get us too involved. and she gave me this weird look. anyways, so then she started talking about the sophomore. tai ami oke bollam "did you realize how you are the only girl who he is allways teasing? i mean in the club, or outside the club he barely talks to any girl, but with her, he is allways teasing her, or getting her to chase him all around the school?" and she was like she jokes with all the guys, thats how her relationship with guys are. she just jokes around with them. its not serious. so i didnt say anything, but i told her to "be careful". i said all this in a joking way. cause she was so "ewwww" about the fact she might actually like a guy who is younger than her. so she just laughed, and went along with the joke. but i was dead serious about what i said. anyways, so you know the day i skipped, i skipped with her right? amra bibhinno jinish niye kotha bolchilam, right? so amra jokhon club niye kotha bolchilam, o finally admit korlo that she started having some feelings for the guy. tokhon abar purapuri ulta, she was like i dont think its wrong to like younger guys, and when i reminded her about our conversation earlier, she was like oh yeah, i did say that dint i? i told her that i dont think its weird to have crushes on younger guys, cause islam permits marriage between younger guy and older guy. and i think its normal to have that kind of feelings if you get involved with guys too much. thats the reason i told her to be careful. but she didnt take me seriously. she was like oh i joke around with all guys. and he is younger than me so its not possible for us to have feelings towards each otehr. but now that it finally did, i guess she kind of feels bad. cause she is kind of trying to avoid him. well, she cant completely, but she is trying.
anyways, and all the other guys, amar je uchcho dharona chilo oder upor, sheta ar oto uchchona. i mean i guess i still respect some of them. but i realized that they are not that different that the other ppl. so even though at first i was so shocked, i am not anymore. hm...whatelse. oh yeah, next year-er jonno election hoilo shedin, maliha ran for tresurer. but then the co-founder's bro got mad at his sis cause he thought it was her fault that maliha ran. i guess he was jealous, and took her as a threat cause there were more girls than guys. including the co-f, and the advisor. and he told her that if he doesnt win for tresurer, he is going to stop coming to the club. so the sis felt really bad. so after the election was over, she didnt count the votes till the next week just cause she was scared that her bro wasnt gonna win. so when she finally did counted it, maliha won by one vote, but then she called maliha and asked her to share the position with her bro. maliha wanted to be nice, so she said ok. but then there was this other guy running for the position too, but she didnt say anything about him. so i kind of bad about it. i mean i felt bad that she was telling maliha to share the position even though maliha won. she was being unfair. but she is the pres, so what can i do? but after that she lied to all the club mem, and told them that it was a tie b/n her bro and maliha. so the guys were like i pick your bro. i got so mad that day, causeshe was unfair and lied about it. so later i called her and told her i didnt want to be a part of this club anymore, cause lieing and being unfair, these are not teachings of islam. so then o amake ulta blame kora shuru korlo, that i was the first one to say the lie. which was totally stupid, cause why would i say that, my sis won. i felt that she was being unfair to my sis and the other guy who didnt win. so we got into this huge fight. maliha started feeling really bad, and thought about handing the position to the guy who got the least vote, not the bro. cause we both think he is a really childish, immature freak. anyways, after all the fights, we kind of talked it out at the end. and she decieded to give everyone in the club a position. all 10 mem. her bro and this otehr guy share the position of VP. and maliha and one of her friend share the position for treasurer. i didnt think this was that fair, cause she gave her stupid bro a higher position, that he doesnt deserve. i mean she through out the votes jsut cause her bro didnt win. and later she was like oh i count the votes wrong. there was one vote that said "me" for the treasurer, that was her bros. so they did tie. anyways, but i liked this way much better than the old way i guess................ai, amar ekhon jete hobe, its 12:17 here. abbi is telling me to get off the comp. oh, munira apur jonno ekta q ache. do you think its backstabbing if you dont even know the ppl? do you think i was backstabing, let me know cause if i am, i dont want to. ok, so Allah hafej. -mou